Case of the Ex…

We all have them (unless you’ve never been with anyone else or never had a significant other).. There are the good ones, who you are happy to let go with the hopes of them coming back & being even more in love then ever before. And when you think about them, you remember all the good. Then there are the bad ones where the break up was so bad, you cringe when you think about them or when someone says their name.. Just brings a bad taste to your mouth.

Ex#1: I thought he was uber cute. We had a couple of classes together in 9th grade. He was the only guy I knew in HS who had full mustache & beard. I let him have my virginity (worse idea ever!) After that we broke up. I tried to be cordial to him our 12th grade year, he sent my nice email to his then girlfriend who responded back very mean and I put that bitch in her place.. She met me the first day of school, guess she didn’t feel threatened or felt so threatened that she didn’t even speak.. Either way, he was a loser.

Ex#2: A year younger than me. So cute.. Straight thug. My mom hated him, she still does. We were off & on for the past 6 years. He is my friend, my first love, my heartache & pain but he holds a special place in my heart forever that no one can take. We still talk via snail mail cuz he’s in the pen. He still makes me feel like I mean so much to him even though he has a girlfriend that’s holding him down. When he gets out next year, he wants to do some things & me being stuck on his loving, I may just let it go down.

Ex#3: Tall, cute Dominican & black mixed.. Rapper, thug who was scared to kill.. Softest touch.. Dirtiest mutherfucka ever! (His how as filthy).. He is still like one of my very good friends. He’s the reason why whenever I hear Young Buck’s “Shorty Wanna Ride”, I laugh to myself.. We always talked about having a couple goodbye sessions, but never worked our way around to that since he had a baby & wifey at home.. He said I was the best and so far, he was one of my best.. *Goes to put Shorty Wanna Ride on my mp3 player*.

Ex#4: Cool, laid back dude. Mixed guy from my high school. He was that kid that was always in some trouble but was really smart. He was different & I liked it. He use to pick on me: pull my hair, call me stupid & fat.. Then sneak me kisses in the hallway or grab my butt.. Talk about mixed emotions. He disappeared after 11th grade. I thought about him consistently. Finally, he called me from jail wanting to see me & explain everything to me. We wrote back & forth for a while.. He wanted me to be his everything & I couldn’t handle it, so I disappeared this time. After a year and some change, I found his MySpace. Sent him a long message of why I left him so abruptly. He understood but was still heartbroken. We messed around for a couple of months last year, but then I dipped out to mess with my current guy..

Ex#5: Met him through a friend. Cool, country boy.. The nicest guy I’ve messed with thus far. A real gentleman. My mom met him & kinda fell in love with his big ass. One of the biggest dudes I’ve messed with too. He was well into the 300 pounds club. We had sex a total of 3 times and just so happened to get pregnant the last time (had a miscarriage & yes it was protected). We’re still pretty good friends. He still wants some of me, but I decline cuz I’m not into him anymore.


With all those guys, I can say that I can make 1 pretty good man.. I can take some of #1 sweetness (use to bring me candy every day), #2 lovemaking abilities, strength, penis, his love for family #3 stamina & strength, #4 his stroke game, & #5 his manners. All 5 of those different qualities could take me out any night. So far I haven’t found 1 guy that comes that close.. Between & during some these relationships, I’ve encountered some pretty good guys, some flakes, Mr, Hit it & Quit it, and some straight up wanksters! All in all I’ve enjoyed each guy in one way or another.

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He said & I thought...

So today I was texting my main guy (you know that one who I've been "involved" with unofficially? Yeah him..)He says out of no where: I want to do what ever you want me to do to you.. I'm thinking does that include that thing you said you would only do on occassions??? He was like yeah.. So of course I got all excited.. As we kept texting, we got on the subject of who am I to you? He says, "your my starship".. I responded like funny.. but forreal? Then he says, "your a very special woman in my life". I know that but what else? "Your my shorty".

That still left a blank spot in my mind like wtf does that mean dude? So I asked a couple of friends: the female said: your unofficially his girl. I'm like cool I guess, but why couldn't he have just said you're my girl??? The male said: It pretty much means my girl or my girl of some sort.. I'm kinda between the 2 like which one does my guy mean??

I know he's scared. I'm scared too cuz I can't go too much longer just being his unofficial main chick.. There are other guys interested in making me their WOMAN, I just don't want to have those what if.. thoughts later on in life.. It's like do I stay or do I go (eventhough, I'm not really there..)

So for right now I'm staying.. I'm a lil sprung & in love (or is it lust cuz homeboy knows how to please me just right)...

WTF is a Pussy Pump?

Okay yesterday I was reading something online.. Probably Craigslist and I saw a pic of this huge, swollen coochie and that shit was just kinda nasty.. Like I was amazed, yet disgusted at how it looked. So later on, I saw that someone said it was a pic of a pussy that had been "pumped" up.. So I started my quest to see what the hell is a PUSSY PUMP.. I googled PUSSY PUMP and the results led me to Wiki After Dark and I was amazed. But I wanted to see pics or video of it actually being done or how it looks after being done.. It led me to a video that showed it actually being done..

In my personal opinion, I would not even consider that a option. I love my pussy just the way it is (minus the hair) and I get aroused quite easily. No pump necessary with this one.. But hey, if you like it, you like it. And after reading some of these sites, women & men both love the pussy pump.. So with that said, go get yours if you wanna try it.. They have many pumps: clit, nipple, pussy, penis, etc.. Just google it baby!!! Enjoy!

Masterbation.. Self Love @ it's finest!!!!

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Christmas to New Years

Hello all! I know it's been forever since I've updated my blog but I've been a little too busy to keep it updated.. Christmas was pretty good. I got this Guess! watch I've been pawning over & some Ed Hardy perfume that smells like automatic erection, lmao.. (Think about it, then ask questions!) New Years is coming within the next couple of days and like always I've made a list of all the things I want to improve/change/add to my life. For some reason, I feel so much differently about my list then I have in the past years. It's like I know what I need to change and this time I really am going to change it! I know that's good but I even have my own doubts about my list.. I'll share a couple of my New Year's Resolutions...

1. Celibacy... That one is a hard one for me kinda.. Like sex isn't everything but when I don't get it, I can be a total bitch..
2. Weight loss... Ugh it was told to me that I needed to lose weight.. That's a good thing since it will improve my health.. But good Lord it's going to take so much out of me to actually get this going. NO PAIN, NO GAIN!
3. MONEY.. I need to manage my money so much better, save more, spend less.. It's going to be hard, but totally worth it! In addition to that, paying my bills.. Sigh, I'm so irresponsible when it comes to that, it doesn't make sense.
   

Those are my top 3 that definitely need to happen no matter what. I'm super determined to just get those goals accomplished before 2010.