1 Broken New Years Resolution…

2009 was my proclaimed year of celibacy. A year for me to find myself without the need & wanting of sex. After reviewing 2008, I realized I’ve had soooooo much sex. Yes it was all good, safe, enjoyable sex with 1 partner. But it was a lot. So around December like every year I started thinking about my 2009 resolutions of what I wanted to improve or change in my life and celibacy was a top priority. I was even so driven that I forgot to tell my partner. January 3^rd hit and he was calling because he missed his sweet stuff. To his dismay, he found out that I was keeping myself to myself. He was of course thinking I was crazy to just give sex up cold turkey, then he was upset cause he never heard anything about this plan and had no time to make up his own plan to get me to change my mind (maybe that’s why I never told him??).So of course he calmed down and tried to see it my way, then get me to see his way and try to get me to compromise. I told him, if you don’t like what I want to do, then move on. That really sent him over the top. January 4th.. He called & text me saying he needed me. All he wanted to do was hold me. My heart smiled so big that celibacy became #20 on my list of resolutions when there were only 5. He came over and showed me affection like never before.. Celibacy was the very last thing on my mind then. As he kissed and caressed me like never before, he whispered “what happened to your celibacy?” I intensely replied, “where ever you want it to be”. Then he asked, “Can I stay here, in this spot for as long as I want to, whenever I want to?” “Yes you can, I never wanted you to leave.” We had intimacy like never before. My new year’s resolution to be celibate was broken by love.

Christmas to New Years

Hello all! I know it's been forever since I've updated my blog but I've been a little too busy to keep it updated.. Christmas was pretty good. I got this Guess! watch I've been pawning over & some Ed Hardy perfume that smells like automatic erection, lmao.. (Think about it, then ask questions!) New Years is coming within the next couple of days and like always I've made a list of all the things I want to improve/change/add to my life. For some reason, I feel so much differently about my list then I have in the past years. It's like I know what I need to change and this time I really am going to change it! I know that's good but I even have my own doubts about my list.. I'll share a couple of my New Year's Resolutions...

1. Celibacy... That one is a hard one for me kinda.. Like sex isn't everything but when I don't get it, I can be a total bitch..
2. Weight loss... Ugh it was told to me that I needed to lose weight.. That's a good thing since it will improve my health.. But good Lord it's going to take so much out of me to actually get this going. NO PAIN, NO GAIN!
3. MONEY.. I need to manage my money so much better, save more, spend less.. It's going to be hard, but totally worth it! In addition to that, paying my bills.. Sigh, I'm so irresponsible when it comes to that, it doesn't make sense.
   

Those are my top 3 that definitely need to happen no matter what. I'm super determined to just get those goals accomplished before 2010.